...and furthermore

i have never been without romantic feeling before. i am no longer in love with sam, sam is with katie. i was never in love with ian, but am over my crush. he is now with that blonde girl. sarah has kelyn and baird. crystal has zac (although he doesn't yet know it.) kristyn still has a crush on kelyn. callum is dating kelly. jordan is dating shanelle. lauren is dating kelvin, anna has a crush on whatsisname, and will likely soon be dating him, likewise for nadine and dan. chris has a monster crush on elissa.


and then there's me. whose heart sits cross-legged, fists tucked under its jaw, elbows rooted into the knees, waiting for something. the tumbling butterflies of a crush. the persistant cascading rivers of love. the stabbing pain of rozbluito. something. but, it seems that while everyone else falls in love, i buckle down for another long winter where only goosebumps kiss my flesh.