because i'm a silly quesadilla

I know it's sad that I have my kid's names picked out. Adrian, Ezra, Charlotte, and my adopted kids. Daughter from Egypt (Nubia perhaps...) or Ethopia: Iris, meaning of course "rainbow" or Zauditu . Son from Russia: Anatol or Aleksei. Anatol being named after Anatol in The Poisonwood Bible, and a variation on the Russian Anatoly/Anatoli. Means "break of day". Aleksei named somewhat in honor of Alex, while keeping to his ethnicity.

bit of a rant

You know what pisses me off? 14 year old sluts.

You know how when a girl flirts with a guy but she starts going a little too far with it and she crosses over that line of "classy flirty" and it just starts to get a little too serious and too thick and you end up feeling dirty just for standing in the presence of it? Yeah. Like that. Except make it so she has only just reached puberty. Mmm. Sexy. NOT.

I have no problem with a bit of flirtatiousness. I can be flirty too. Except I will be the first to describe my flirtation nature as very casual and carefree. I flirt by laughing and joking around. Whereas ________ flirts by sucking guys off. (Pardon the crass language, it's only appropriate given the topic.) Whereas some people may have display pictures of looking innocently up at the camera while eating a cherry or a lollipop, she's looking "innocent" as she displays a pack of Trojans. It no longer is suggestive. It's telling. Her response to a picture of two of her friends looking stupid? "I'd bang both of you. Twice." And you get the feeling she's not kidding. Nothing cute and light like "Oh migod you guys are amazing have my babies." Nope. She just comes out and says it. And seriously, it makes me feel dirty. Let's have a recap. I am 18 years old, of legal age for porn and other dirty fun. I went through puberty long ago. A 14 year old CHILD makes me feel dirty. Wrong? Yes. Eugh. I think I need a shower now. It's gross. And it's even worse because guys buy into it. And consequently, everyone thinks she's a slut. Because she encourages it. Eugh. And again. Eugh. No female decency or pride. Shameful. Best part? So Greg was looking for a car. Found a few different ones, one in particular which was a convertible. He mentioned to me he was probably going to get that one. He added that "I've already been offered oral if I do get it." I looked him square in the face and said, "______ offered head, didn't she? She'll offer anyone head." He looked at me surprised, and then looked down sort of defeated and embarassed. I thought so. Again. I'm going to end this post because I feel dirty.

Yay rant.

all that i have is yours, all that i am is yours

Firstly: I have recently been improving my Death Cab for Cutie collection. Cheers.
Secondly: I have not been writing much because I have been writing a ton. Meaning, I have been writing (longhand) in my journal recently. I started up two days before graduation (YES I GRADUATED WHOOO!) and I decided to keep it so I'll have like, written proof of my change (if any) I go through through my summer and college. :)
Thirdly: Ultimate frisbee. Yes. My summer love.