and if i keep telling myself it's alright, maybe it will be

So, in good news: I FINISHED MY WORK, which means I FINISHED ONE SEMESTER OF COLLEGE and I didn't fail anything.
In bad news: I'm starting to freak out a little bit. We're driving to San Diego. Tonight. In a pickup truck. We're insane. It's insane. We're insane.
In more bad news: I have to kind of semi-pack up the room. Before dance.
In more more bad news: I'm exhausted. Emotionally, physically just completely exhausted. And I can't sleep. And I have two or three or so hours of dance today.
In potentially good news: I might get to see him tonight. I hope.
In good? news: We're really doing this. REALLY. OH mygod.
In good news: I can finally hide a million notes for Julia to find.
In good news: I got Dad and Alex done for Christmas shopping.
In bad news: I have a mom, too.
In good news: I love her.
In bad news: I have no idea what to get her.
In bad news: "In what scientists are calling 'pretty gay' I can't find my" will to be awake.
In bad news: I cannot reach my cousins.
In good news: Soon we won't be able to think about it anymore.
In bad news: We're clearly insane.
In potentially bad news: If the dorm burns down, I will cry.
In bad news: I have something stuck in my teeth and no floss.
In good news: Flossing helps prevent cavities.
In bad news: I might be going insane.
In kinda darkly funny news: I've managed to avoid the guy who asked me out ever since he asked, except yesterday when I was standing in the hall, hugging Brock, and he walked by. Heh.



LK:SDLKFJ:LKSDJF:LKJDS:FLKJDS:LFJEURHFUWOIERHKJSBNDKFHG We're insane. Totally insane. And it's gonna be okay, but I mean..the whole country. In a pickup truck. And it's small. We tried to clean it out today. We're insane. Ah. It'll be ok. It will. I'll just keep singing Christmas carols to myself.
Love,
Me

thinking of a hug, and maybe a kiss in the rain

Had a wonderfully amazing dream. And when I woke up was so happy, but then almost cried to realize that it was, indeed, a dream. Only a dream. Isn't it weird how a dream can change how you feel about someone?

i don't know why i keep doing these

Lets play 55.
No lies.

1.Do you miss someone right now?
So many people. My extended family, Sarah, Crystal, that boy, Callum, Harry, Jojo

2.When was the last time you went to the movies?
I got asked out on a date last night to go to the movies, but I think I rejected him.

3.When did you get up this morning?
8:30ish

4.What does your name mean?
I'd think it's obvious.

5.Ever saw someone die?
No, but yes dying.

6.Football or Baseball?
Frisbee!

7.Ever had your heart broken?
Oy

8.Who are you talking to right now?
No one, roommate and Kerri are asleep

9.When was the last time you cried?
last moth

10.Current mood?
Uhm. Wishing I got more than 4 hours (or less) of sleep.

11.What do you want to do right now?
See my family

12.Are your parents divorced?
no

13.When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
Before I fell asleep to Jule and Kerri. To Jule a lot recently.

14.Wear glasses?
no

15.How about braces?
no

16.Who is your best friend/friends?
Sarah, Crystal, Kerri, Kristyn, that boy, Enrique, Linds

17.Farthest place youve traveled to?
All the way 'round. Canada, Mexico, Europe, Egypt, Japan, Australia/New Zealand/Fiji

18.Who do you go to for help?
Mom, Sarah

19.Ever wanted someone so bad you`d do anything for them?
Yes

20.Ever cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Never

21.Ever have a boyfriend/girlfriend cheat on you?
Yes

22.Been used?
Jokingly, but not seriously

23.Current problem?
Whether to go on that date, but reallyhow to get someone who loves you to get unconfused.

24.Do you want any kids?
Yes, five, right now.

25.If so, what would the names be?
Adrian, Ezra, Charlotte (Charlie), Alexsi/Anatol, and Iris

26.Warm or cold places?
Both

27.Do you sing in the shower?
No

28.How about dance in your underwear?
Always

29.Sing into your hair brush in front of the mirror?
Yes

30.After you get out of the shower, and theres water on the mirror do you write anything?
No, the mirrors here don't fog.

31.Do you enjoy doing surveys?
Maybe too much.

32.Ever climbed a tree and fallen out?
I don't know...probably

33.Describe the biggest or your most favorite house youve lived in?
Current house

34.Last place you lived?
Home

35.Describe your ex?
Perfect, but not flawless.

36.Are you friends with any of your exs?
Yes, both.

37.Type your full name using your nose.
No

38.Are right handed or left handed?
Right

39.Are you a big flirt?
Not usually, but when I do flirt, I am obvious about it. No subltety here.

40.Do you play songs with clicky pens?
No, I actually really don't like the sound.

41.Ever stick a French fry up your nose?
No

42.Describe an embarrassing moment?
Pronouncing Proust, Wolfe and Lucan incorrectly. (In my defense, hadn't heard of them except Wolfe, which when I wrote it down I spelled it wrong so it said Woolf.)

43.Ever run through a store like a total idiot?
I don't think so, but I will.

44.Danced on the side of a busy road?
Yeah

45.What time is it?
9:18

46.Has your mood changed since the beginning of this survey?
Not that I know of

47.Whats your favorite restaurant?
Diners! Outback, and mom.

48.Can you dance?
Yes

49.When you're with your friends, what do you usually do?
Hug, snuggle, laugh, talk a lot.

50.Who is the last person who called you?
Mom returned my call.

51.The last person you called?
Mom

52. Say something about your best friends.
Love puddle.

53.What song explains you?
Hah. As if one song could do that. I Want You To Want Me is my favorite. Banana Pancakes-Jack Johnson

54.Ever have a bf/gf write/play you a song/poem?
Yes. Sam wrote me a poem and three songs (three? four?).

55.Name current windows open.
This one.